After Chris left for work, I was flipping through a magazine my Grandma gave me, Diabetes Forecast, and came across an article about children with strong family ties of Type 2 diabetes and ways to best keep them on a healthy path. Most of it I already know. Exercise, eat right, exercise some more, be a good example for your child. In short be healthy and be active and be a role model. I'm already pretty adamant about what Sophia can and cannot eat- just ask my mom. But I realized that I was a sorry example for her to look up to. She may have avocado and lettuce with some cheese for lunch, but I'm sitting right next to her chowing down on whatever is handy. Like pizza and Mountain Dew. The kicker is, that she isn't diabetic and I might as well be. So, its early, but I'm setting a realistic and necessary "New Years" goal. I need to get myself back on track. I've been horrible about tracking my sugars. And I'm not even taking my insulin anymore. A big ol' pile of life clouded my view on my health and by the time I realized it, I figured it was to late to worry about catching up. Besides, its hard work. While I was pregnant I had gestational diabetes and was so careful about everything I put in my body. I tried to watch everything I ate because even before I was diagnosed, I just knew I would have GD. I was glucose intolerant going into it and when my results came back positive I was at work and I was sobbing because I knew the worst of what could happen. But I resolved myself to take care of myself for my unborn child. I tested every morning and after every meal. I injected my insulin and changed my dosage myself to get my numbers right. I tested my ketones everyday. Everyone told me that as soon as she was born the GD would go away. But I wasn't so lucky in that aspect. I continued to test and take my insulin but here lately I've just quit. I'm tired of bleeding and I'm tired of giving myself shots and poking my fingers and keeping track of what I eat. But tonight as I found myself standing in my kitchen holding myself up for fear I was about to pass out on the floor I found myself thinking "When did you eat last? Stupid girl, when?" the answer is: 12 hours earlier. Not. Good. So, things need to change. Considering I just pounded back a soda a few minutes ago, I will wait until morning to test my blood sugars again. And I will do it like always, 2 hours after every meal. I'll drink more water and make sure I eat. I've decided to wean Sophia completely, seeing as she is only down to one nursing session a day, it won't be hard. Then I'm going to reschedule my doctors appointment and I'll go take my a1c test. And I'll go to that appointment, already knowing what she is going to say because I KNOW that I haven't been taking care of myself. I'll tell her I've weaned and she'll put me on metaformin. And I WILL take care of myself. And anytime I feel myself getting burnt out and wanting to quit all the hard work, I'm going to look in my precious daughters face and resolve myself to do it FOR HER if I can't bring myself to do it for me any longer.
And know my pictures are loaded. So enjoy them!
See- avocados and cheese! Yum!
Playing guitar with Daddy
Showing Daddy how to do it right.
3 comments:
Good for you! I've been trying to take better care of myself for the past couple years now, but the LO's definitly inspire us to be better. We have to be around long enough to see their LO's and hopefully their LO's LO's! LOL :P
CUTE pics by the way! I'm totally jealous of the guitar and those jammies!!! :D
Thanks! The pjs were a gift from my Mother-in-Law. She got them at our Super Target- they carry a whole line of Paul Frank clothes!
I'm glad to hear all that Elly! As a Registered Dietitian, there is nothing more that is music to my ears to hear the things you said in your post! Glad to hear you're getting back on track (even though I didnt know any of that before)! Its hard, but it seems like you know the consequences.
Anyways, Good for you!
Roxanne
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